Dysphoric mania, also known as agitated or mixed mania is a bipolar disorder mood swing that is often missed due to confusing symptoms.
Dysphoric mania is the opposite of euphoric mania- it’s still a chemically elevated (in terms of energy) mood- but it has none of the good feelings associated with euphoric mania. Dysphoric mania is very confusing for the person in the mood swing. The anger can be so quick and so real.
I am angry at you for many things! I’m just angry! Leave me alone. Stop bugging me!
I don’t have a problem. Why don’t you look at yourself! You are the one with the problem! It can’t always be me. You’ve been getting on my case about this for years. In fact, just last month on the 21st I remember that you said something about my behavior.
I’ve changed. My eyes are open and what I thought I wanted isn’t good enough. I want out. I couldn’t tell you this before because I didn’t know I was so unhappy.
Why do you always want to change me? Can’t you just see that this is who I am and your snooping into my life is just making me want out more than ever.
I’m going to #$%#$% rip the sink out of this #$%#$% wall if you don’t get the #$%#$ out of this kitchen. I hate you! I hate everyone in my #$%#^@# life!
Part 2 of this blog has a bipolar disorder dysphoric manic checklist! You can visit my Facebook page at Julie A. Fast and read more comments on this post.
Here is a question from Maddie about the above blog:
Right now I’m so p.o’d with everyon, even if I don’t want to be and I know I shouldn’t. But omg! I want to say I feel a little psychotic depressive (if its possible to only be a little psychotic) hallucinations, constant anxiety and fear, thoughts of killing (myself and others even though I don’t feel like acting upon them) I imagine my wrists slit open or see myself get hit by a bus, etc. I feel like every person I pass is watching me and is going to do something. Its so bad -does this sound like bipolar psychosis? I am bipolar (not officially so I can’t say if bipolar I or bipolar II etc.)
When I’m pissed off at EVERYONE it tends to be bipolar disorder. It’s pretty hard to be mad at the world- there are usually a few good people who don’t deserve our anger! This is usually anxiety or a mixed episode for me- also called dysphoric mania. You can use your sleep as a guide- if you see significant changes in your sleep, it’s usually mania. If you have trouble sleeping due to restless thoughts- but can still sleep, it’s usually anxiety. Also, what are the possible triggers. I just wrote my latest column for BP Magazine and it’s about giving up the triggers that make us sick, even if we like the triggers!
What you describe 100% sounds like stress psychosis. I get it when life is too hectic- such as when I have to speak in front of a big crowd or I’m in a situation I can’t control. I always called the hallucinations where I saw myself get killed- ‘death images.’ Then I realized it was psychosis. Homicidal thoughts are common too- wanting to kill someone out of anger is a scary feeling. The thinking that people are watching you is typical paranoia. If you are experiencing this with depression, then it could be bipolar. But the only way you can have bipolar is if you have had an obvious hypomanic or manic episode. You can look on my blog subject menu for more information on psychosis and mania. I definitely suggest you go see someone for an evaluation. Psychosis is not super common, so something is going on with your brain that can be fixed! If you want to find out a more general description of bipolar disorder, my book Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder is the best option. I suggest you see if you fit the symptoms for bipolar II and then go get some help. There is no way you want to live like this- and I know from personal experience that you can get a LOT better. Julie