Bipolar Disorder? Never Give Up! Even when life throws you a curve ball, there are answers.

Hi! As you can see, I haven’t posted as much as I normally do. I’m dealing with an old…. old… old! back injury and am not writing as much as I would like.  When life throws me a curve ball-  I have to make sure I treat bipolar disorder first. I’m doing this! The mood is stable. yay. The back? That’s a challenge. I look for inspiration everywhere when life is tough.  I just saw the video below and it was exactly what I needed today. I hope it helps you as well-  there are so many ways we can respond to this video! For me, it says, never give up Julie. Never give up!

Never give up! We can move forward with our lives even when life throws us a curve ball.


You can read more about Pascale Honore & Tyron Swan, the stars of the inspirational short film, Duct Tape Surfing at Duct Tape Surfing on Facebook.

Julie Fast is speaking about bipolar disorder in Portland, Oregon on March 28th, 2014

Hello to everyone! This is a reminder that I’m speaking for Cedar Hills Hospital here in Portland, Oregon on the topic of bipolar disorder. The talk is specifically for health care professionals, but many people with bipolar disorder or those who care about someone with the illness will be there. Here is the email the hospital sent out- the links are not live, so I added a live link at the bottom if you would like to register. I love meeting readers and clients! Maybe I will see you there! Julie

Click here to read more about the bipolar disorder presentation.

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Bipolar Swivel Head at the UFC

ufc bigI’m watching the UFC (Ultimate Fighting Championship) fights with my brother Ed. We love hanging out once a month to watch the mma skills and have fun chatting and talking smack.  We usually go to a bar where there is a TV in each corner. I do ok in this environment. I’ve learned to just pick a spot and stick to one TV.

Unfortunately, our regular bar can no longer afford the $1200 the UFC wants to show the fights. (Astonishing!) So I’m here at a Buffalo Wild Wings. The people are nice- the TV is huge and I can actually hear the commentators. It’s going to be packed.

The problem?

My bipolar brain.

As you can see from the picture below, there isn’t one TV in a corner. There are TVs on every wall showing different channels. This leads to what I call:

Bipolar Swivel Head

My brain goes into overdrive and keeps looking at all of the TVs as though it’s going to miss something important. I- the real me- know that I simply need to focus on the large TV in front of me, but my brain doesn’t care what I want.

This leads to big time ADD symptoms, some anxiety and trouble enjoying the evening. And my brother isn’t even here to join me yet!

I know that visual overstimulation is the problem- it’s happened watching World Cup soccer friendlies last week. It’s very, very uncomfortable and I have to figure out what to do.

I know that having the kind of glasses they put on horses who have to walk in the city would help.  It’s not the sound that’s bothering me as much as the constant visual change on the screens. I actually rolled up a menu and looked through it to see if it made a difference if I could block out the screens on the side.


I’m sure my brother would love it if I spent the evening looking through a menu tube.

What can I do?

The first step is the most important- I realize that this is a trigger for me. I’m not drinking, so that’s not an issue. I’m not meeting new people and I will be home around 10:15, so my sleep won’t be compromised.

The next step is to keep my eyes focused on the big screen. It has to be a conscious decision. When the swivel head starts, I must physically get my head back in a straight ahead position.

This may seem like overkill, but if I don’t take care of this now, the evening will be one of nervousness and anxiety which means even more trouble getting to sleep.

I won’t come back here next time- but I’m here now and I don’t want to tap out of my evening before it has even started. Ha!



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Bipolar Happens! is in the Top Ten of Bipolar Disorder Books on the Kindle!

BHenhanced  65Bipolar Happens: 35 Tips and Tricks to Manage Bipolar Disorder is in the top ten of Bipolar Disorder books on the Kindle!

That’s exciting. I went to the Kindle store to see how my books Loving Someone with Bipolar Disorder and Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder were doing on the bipolar disorder page. These books are in the top ten ranking- and then I saw that Bipolar Happens! was up there as well.

Fantastic! Bipolar Happens! is an enjoyable book about a serious topic.

Guess what- it’s only $.99 I want it to be available to everyone.

Yes, I think this is a great deal and a good way to get helpful information about bipolar disorder at minimum cost. Bipolar Happens! was my first book. I knew I wanted to talk about how I manage the illness, but I also wanted to tell stories about how it affects my life daily.

There are stories about anger, manic spending, anxiety at a baseball game and what it feels like to be psychotic! It’s a book that family members love too. I love it myself. It’s hopeful.

Click here to go to You can read part of the book and then add it to your Kindle. Wow, $.99!


PS: If you’re new to my work, this is a great way to experience my writing style and the quality of my information. If you like it, you can come back for more.

Bipolar Disorder: Manic Grandiosity

When my former partner Ivan got really sick in 1994, he told me he believed he was a genius. This upset him a lot because there was a part of him who knew this was an odd thing to feel, but the other part believed it. When he got so ill he could no longer have a coherent conversation, he definitely thought he knew more than most people. I found a piece of paper where he was listing all of his thoughts- one said, “I am genius.”

Grandiosity is characterize by a person truly, truly believing that they are better than everyone and they make sure people know it! I remember being manic once and looking in the mirror and thinking- I am more beautiful than every person I know! That is manic grandiosity at its best!

Manic grandiosity is very different from narcissism. The grandiosity that comes with mania is episodic- in other words it is ONLY there during a bipolar disorder mood swing. Narcissism is a personality disorder that is consistent and truly part of a person’s being.

Manic grandiosity can be funny or it can be very annoying. When someone is grandiose, it’s hard to get them to see reality. They feel so superior that your opinion doesn’t matter.

Bipolar disorder is so odd. One minute we can feel like the dirt of the earth- and then we are smarter than everyone in the world.


PS: I went onto Google images to find a picture that represets the word grandiosity. Guess who had the most pictures. Politicians!

My Family and Partner Coaching is Currently Full

b fatherI’m finally accepting that I can’t be three people at once and will have to take a break from new clients in my coaching practice.  It’s by far my favorite work, but reality has to be faced!

For this reason, I posted the following on my coaching page:

Hello, thank you for visiting my coaching page.  My practice is currently full. I have a waiting list I want to complete before taking new clients. Please check my blog for news on when I will have available appointments. If you have already sent in a query, please know I will get to each one and you will hear from me soon. My book Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder is an excellent overall book for parents and partners and my book Loving Someone with Bipolar Disorder: Understanding and Helping Your Partner speaks directly to partners. My newsletter also has many tips for partners and parents. Thank you for your patience and I hope we can connect in the future. Julie

Please do check back on this blog if you want to explore coaching in the future.  I hope to accept new clients in April. If you sent in a query and have not heard from me, this is due to the high volume of emails I receive weekly on the topic.  I will get to each and every one as I know how important it is to have help when you love someone with bipolar disorder.

Thank you,


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