I have a lot of names for the myriad types of depression I experience. For the past week, I’ve had stunned depression off and on. This type of depression is especially hard because it makes movement difficult. This rotten mood swing makes me sit on the side of the bed with my hands in my head like I’m in a daze. It’s harder to think. I have all of the normal upsetting depression thoughts- that is bad enough- I just can’t stand how it stuns me. Like a sucker punch. Technically, it’s catatonic depression… but it still feels like I’ve been hit from behind.

The holidays aren’t the best time for a lot of us. My friends are out of town- there are too many expectations-  people are out of the office- my hands are injured.

I could go on and on- which is exactly what depression wants me to do. I just can’t do it. So, I got out today and did everything I could to feel better. I watched football, played with my mom’s new puppy, saw my nephew and am now going to meet a friend. I have to deal with my hand injuries as a normal person would- I can’t let the depression take hold- I wrote Get it Done When You’re Depressed for this stunned depression. I often think of the table of contents and use what I can. I have one called Think Like an Athlete- which is applicable during the football playoff season- I’m always amazed at how athletes keep going even when they’re sick.

I am going to be like them! I will not let depression stun me all day!  

Julie

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