Archive for August, 2008

Bipolar Disorder in the Early Morning

Sunday, August 31st, 2008

When I wake up in the morning I can always tell- immediately- what mood I’m in. I either have a thought or just an overwhelming feeling about what I will face during the day.

When I wake up depressed, I have the thought, “There’s no point to my life.”

When I wake up manic- if I managed to sleep enough at all! I have the thought, “All right! I’m going to get so much done today!”

The depressive thoughts are more like a flood or terrible emotion- they can cloud my day all day if I let them.

The manic thoughts are like a blast of sunlight and I spring out of my bed like an athlete.

I use this time of the day to gauge my mood before I even leave my room. I have to be that self aware. If it’s depression, I say to myself, “Ok Julie. It’s here. Now let’s do something about it. You WILL feel better when you go to bed tonight.”

If it’s mania, I say to myself, “Be careful today Julie. Channel this to working, not to partying.”

Of course, my favorite way to wake up is with no odd thoughts at all. I just get out of bed and get on with my day.

Julie

Holiday weekend: A really short bipolarhappens.com blog entry!

Friday, August 29th, 2008

Have you noticed that I’ve been writing massive blogs lately! I want to help people learn from my experiences so they don’t have to repeat them.

So here is a really short blog- because the one before this is excellent, but it’s long!

Some things to say to yourself before the holiday weekend:

1. I’m happy to be well enough to see friends and family with pleasure.
2. It’s summer and I appreciate the sunshine.
3. I live in Oregon and I accept the rotten weather we will have this weekend. It’s true unfortunately!
4. I can and will have an enjoyable weekend whether I am depressed, just out of the hospital or just plain scared about my life.
5. I am going to stop this blog now or it will be too long as well!

julie

Reader Question: Travel and Bipolar Disorder

Friday, August 29th, 2008

Here is a question about travel from Karen:

Julie, was your plan to adjust your sleep schedule a week ahead of time successful?  My BP husband must travel from the West coast to East next month and I have been frantically searching for ways to help him do this without becoming ill.  Thank you in advance for your answer!

Karen

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Karen wrote this question in a comment about my blog post on how I deal with time changes now that I can travel again- if you go to the menu on the right, you can click on travel and the post will come up called Traveling to the NAMI Convention in Florida. It helps to read that before you read this post.

Hi Karen,

I always tell people with bipolar disorder to think way, way ahead about time changes when they travel.

Have you ever noticed that when we hear a tragic story about bipolar disorder in the news-  the cause of the mood swing was often travel where a person’s sleep and medications got off schedule?  I listen to these stories whether it be of a football player who misses the Super Bowl- or someone who became ill after traveling to a wildly different time zone such as going to South America and I think- we HAVE to have a plan for everything we do. Bipolar disorder does NOT like change, especially time changes.

Bipolar disorder runs on a very strict biological clock- which is why shift work is considered one of the top triggers of bipolar disorder- in fact, my coauthor Dr. John Preston lists this second after drugs and alcohol as a main trigger!

The answer to your question is YES- planning ahead for my travels to the East Coast has been very successful- but it takes a strict plan.

I’m speaking at the DBSA conference in Virginia in two weeks. This is a three hour time change- which may not seem like much- but it is to us with bipolar biological clocks. Here is what I’m going to do and what your husband can do as well. :

1. Start to get on East coast time one week before the trip- this simply means going to bed one hour earlier for a few nights- you then go to bed two hours earlier for a few nights and then three hours earlier the two nights before. This is actually very easy from this direction as it just means you get up really early.  For many people, simply not watching TV at all the week before the trip really helps. No late night news, sports games, etc. No karaoke with friends for me!

2.  I have to repeat this one, no late night television or computer use for a week before the trip. These activities are really stimulating!

3. Change your eating patterns to fit East coast time.

4. If possible, book a flight that fits the East coast time zone. In other words, leave early in the morning!

5. Have your bag packed WAY ahead of time! This avoids the late night rush that many people have before a trip.

6. I then do the reverse for the way back. I go to bed later and later to prepare for the return home. We often don’t work on our last travel day- so we can sleep in a lot more.  When I was in Florida- I stayed up until 2AM and slept until 9AM. I have to use sleep meds to do this. 

It really does make a huge difference- I use the hotel call service for my alarm.

7. I don’t drink at night or go to karaoke, night clubs or late dinners when I’m on a work trip. It’s too stimulating.  Luckily the hotels have movies!

8. It’s also essential that you regulate your meds along with your travel- keep them in a pill box in your pocket as well as a supply in your room. I take a double supply with me- one in my purse and one in my travel bag. You can’t miss meds while traveling! That will really miss things up.

9. If you need sleep help to accomplish all of this, that’s fine. Talk with your doctor about using an anti anxiety med like Ativan or Klonopin to sleep or ask about Ambien, Tylenol PM and Benedryl. Alcohol does not work!

These are such simple steps. They don’t cost any money and they are one of the reasons I can travel again. I’m a machine when I travel- I have a schedule that I stick to. I go to my room to recharge. I skip the stimulating stuff even though it can be really hard to do so! I guess I can say I have controlled fun when I travel! It’s a learning process. My next trip to Virginia is going to be a success! I know your husband’s trip can be a success as well!

Julie

PS: If you have the Health Cards Treatment System for Bipolar Disorder, I would definitely make  a travel card! They really help!

Bipolarhappens.com blog reader comments!

Thursday, August 28th, 2008

I’ve received such amazing comments on the blogs lately- when you look at a blog, there is a little comments icon at the top- if there is a number next to it, this means there are comments. Then you can comment on the comments!

I see all bipolarhappens.com blog comments before they are posted, so your ideas and support mean a lot to me.

Julie

Bipolar Disorder Mood Swings: Weeks of Depression

Thursday, August 28th, 2008

Weeks of Depression

I’ve been depressed off and on for weeks. I wake up with it and often go to bed with it. I’ve had to modify my life to take care of it. I’m going out with friends more- more lunches and coffee meetings. I want to work- but it’s time to just work on the depression.

It takes time. Nothing is going on. There were no personal triggers- at least not big ones. I had a manic episode a few weeks ago and this is just the downswing that comes after. I wish I were manic! Though I know that is just as bad.

So, today is tough. I always feel better when my room and house are clean- but it’s hard for me to do it when I’m depressed. My mother came over and helped me. It’s amazing how much it helps the depression.

This is one of the strategies in Get it Done When You’re Depressed. Ask for help with cleaning- it really makes a difference.

My life is fine- the bipolar is the problem. I must remind myself of that all day.

I will get better!  I will go to bed feeling better than I did when I woke up. That is my goal!

Julie

DBSA.. Julie Fast Podcast interview: Families and Bipolar Disorder

Tuesday, August 26th, 2008

I’m speaking at the Depression Bipolar Support Alliance in September, 2008. I really look forward to it.

My presentation is on Families and Mood Disorders. The three hour program is filled with personal stories and tips on managing the illness as a team.

I recently did a DBSA podcast interview on the topic.  Don’t worry! The podcast isn’t three hours. ;)

I think you will enjoy it!

Please click on this link for the podcast:

Julie Fast DBSA Interview: Families and Bipolar Disorder

Depending on your computer system, you can either listen directly from this blog, or you may have to download the podcast to your computer. This is a MP3 file that’s easy to download and then play. You can then put the file on your IPOD.

Let me know what you think!

Julie

bipolar disorder and depression ….

Tuesday, August 26th, 2008

I’m so sick tonight.  

This is what I wrote in my journal last night when I tracked my mood. I’ve tracked my moods every night for over four years. It is an amazing tool. Usually, I can tell by looking at a month of data what was helping and hurting the bipolar. These last few months have not been as obvious. I’ve just had so much depression that doesn’t seem related to any event. It’s causing events!  When this happens, I try to look deeper into what my be exacerbating the depression.  1. I know it’s bipolar disorder. It’s al illness. There is nothing wrong with me.  2. I’m very upset and worried about my brother. I’m once again to the point of not spending time with him due to his moods. He’s a wonderful man, but he won’t get help for his mood swings. (Yes, I write the books- he doesn’t read them!)  3. I worry about my mom becauase she is worried about my brother!  4. I’m very stuuupidlly reading a very good, but way too depressing Japanese crime novel. Now Julie, this is just dumb.  5. My work is unfocused.  6. I’m often lonely because I’m single- yes, I made the decision to stay single this year in order to work without being PSYCHOTIC! but it’s hard.  wait…. is this list never going to end! It helps to write this as I see these are all normal things. As I say in my newsletter below- I just feel them more than people without bipolar. These everyday occurrences make me wake up crying.  They cause a despair and gloom that sits on me like a dark fog.  I have an illness. I can deal with my real life the way a normal person would- I have to deal with the repercussions of my normal life with it’s normal problems by treating bipolar disorder separately. I will look at that list all day today and make the changes needed to get rid of this awful depression. I can go to bed feeling better than I do right now.  gosh! I wrote a novel! I try to keep these things short!  Julie