Depression stinks. It takes away my ability to think rationally and I hate it. That is putting it mildly. I’ve found that there are certain things I simply can’t let myself do when I’m depressed:
- Eat junk food to feel better (some people have to watch caffeine)
- Make big decisions such as canceling a project or telling someone I can’t see them anymore
- Keep seeing people who make me depressed!
I also have to watch my driving as my reflexes are off.
As you can tell, the depression has me today. I woke up crying. It’s from a combination of things- trying to work more, relationships, a friend’s illness, eating poorly! Many would say, well no wonder you’re depressed- but as those of us with bipolar disorder know, this depression goes beyond the normal reaction to outside events. This is physical and often out of my control.
But! I can still get on with my day. I’m here to meet my business partner and I teach a writing class tonight. I can act as if all is well until it is. It always works.
Julie
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