When I wake up in the morning I can always tell- immediately- what mood I’m in. I either have a thought or just an overwhelming feeling about what I will face during the day.
When I wake up depressed, I have the thought, “There’s no point to my life.”
When I wake up manic- if I managed to sleep enough at all! I have the thought, “All right! I’m going to get so much done today!”
The depressive thoughts are more like a flood or terrible emotion- they can cloud my day all day if I let them.
The manic thoughts are like a blast of sunlight and I spring out of my bed like an athlete.
I use this time of the day to gauge my mood before I even leave my room. I have to be that self aware. If it’s depression, I say to myself, “Ok Julie. It’s here. Now let’s do something about it. You WILL feel better when you go to bed tonight.”
If it’s mania, I say to myself, “Be careful today Julie. Channel this to working, not to partying.”
Of course, my favorite way to wake up is with no odd thoughts at all. I just get out of bed and get on with my day.
Julie
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