Bipolar Happens Blog – Julie Fast

I have always liked the words greatness, champion and hard worker.  I apply those to bipolar disorder management.  I like to see myself as a champion. I certainly hope for greatness. To me these words mean that I simply keep going no matter what bipolar disorder throws at me. Sometimes I limp- fall down, hurt myself and dont’ want to go forward.  I know that is what bipolar disorder wants. I remember coming out of some manic episodes in the past and feeling that I would never recover from what I did while I was manic. But I recovered. I remember being so suicidal that I could hardly move because of fear I would do something I regretted. When I realized that I could make it through anything, that’s when I started to write my books. You may not know this, but I wrote all of my books while depressed. I am sure you can understand that I wasn’t exactly sitting down to write when the hypomania decided to show up.

How are things for you today? Maybe you just got out of the hospital, did something stupid while you were manic, said something awful to someone you love, thought of killing yourself or spent money you didn’t have.

I’ve been there! I’ve done that!  My idea of a champion is someone who makes it through bipolar situations and then finds a way to keep going so that they can create a plan for the future- a much better future.

Julie