Archive for the ‘Mania’ Category

Bipolar Disorder Mania Check In

Monday, July 13th, 2009

It’s hard to write about mania considering that I have been in a downswing for a week, but it’s a topic I have to continually address- I hear stories all summer about people who go off their meds because they feel so GREAT and then the disasters that follow. It’s easy to think – the sun is just so WONDERUFL!!!!!! when the weather gets nice, you’re off school, you have a vacation, the kids are home, etc. 

There is no doubt that summer is wonderful if you were depressed in the winter- but this is just a friendly reminder that when things get WONDERFUL!!!!!, it’s time to check for mania. Here are some questions to ask yourself – or ask the person you care about.

1. Are you sleeping a lot less than what is considered the norm- but are still filled with energy the next day? The norm is six to eight hours- mania sleep would be less than five hours for example- or sometimes not even sleeping at all.

2. Did what seemed truly hopeless suddenly become full of possibility and beauty?

3. Are the people in your life commenting on your energy level and that you need to cool it?

4. Are you more creative, but less functional?  

5. Do you have the thought that you don’t need your medications as you feel JUST FINE!

6. Are you acting ( or even thinking ) compulsively regarding spending, sexuality, travel, etc?

7. Are you filled with nervous and uncomfortable energy?  Is this energy painful and worrisome- but you can’t seem to calm down?

8. Is your mind racing, are you starting to see things and hear things, do you feel paranoid or agitated?

There are two levels of mania- hypomania (bipolar II) and full blown mania (bipolar I). Mania can start slowly and stay at a low level. This is called hypomania.

Mania can also start really quickly and spin out of control and often into psychosis really quickly. This is called full blown mania.

Within the levels of mania- there is

Euphoric (happy! grandiose!)

Mania and dysphoric/mixed mania (agitation, racing thoughts, irritation, anger, feeling uncomfortable.)

I created the Health Cards Treatment System to help my depression- but they have helped the most in terms of mania. It’s hard to catch lightening in a bottle- and mania is like lightening. The treatment window is SO short.

Please make sure you are ready for the absolutely first signs that it’s starting. Fill out or look at your mania Health Card. 

I want us all to have a wonderful summer- not a WONDERFUL!!!!! summer.

Julie

My book Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder has more information about mania symptoms.

Bipolar Disorder Dysphoric Mania: Just work through it Julie!

Saturday, July 4th, 2009

I’m here in my office using all the ideas I can think of from my books! I have an article due- it’s going well- but getting the work done is literally physically painful! My brain feels like it’s going to explode and my body is very uncomfortable- it’s a mild form of dysphoric mania where my mood is mildly down but my energy is agitated. I’m definitely having trouble concentrating. Dysphoric mania is the opposite of euphoric mania (where things feels good!) – psychosis is often a part of dysphoric mania, though I’m not feeling any psychotic symptoms. When I start seeing things- then I’ll worry about psychosis. This all has to make me laugh a bit. I’m so used to these mood swings- and so used to writing about bipolar disorder that I am no longer even scared of the odd symptoms-

How I will get my work done:

Set an extremely specific goal for myself: Regarding my article- there are many, many steps to the process- but everything starts with one step- so I decide on one thing and focus on it until it’s done. Such as getting all of my quotes in the right sections of the article. When I get off track, I say- Julie, do the quotes only- then you can move on to something else. This definitely lessens the worry.

I know where a lot of this is coming from- I had a reaction to Zoloft- this led to a two week suicidal downswing, then three and a half days of mania- one day of euthymia ( a stable mood!), then a few days of going in and out of depression and now the dysphoric mania.

This is the same bipolar I’ve always had, but now I have a plan in place to manage it.  My tips in Get it Done When You’re Depressed help with mild dysphoric mania.

Ok, time to finish my one step in the article.

Julie

PS: It defintely helps to imagine a calm place.

Podcast: Conversations with Sherri- Pt 1 MANIA

Monday, June 15th, 2009

I am excited to post my new bipolarhappens.com podcast series called Conversations with Sherri.

Sherri is a dear friend of mine who has bipolar I. She has been in an off and on manic/psychotic episode for over two years- and of course, there is a lot of depression mixed in there as well. In this opening podcast, Sherri and I talk about her bipolar disorder one  history as well as her experiences of mania. She is such an honest and funny person! Our next conversation is on benzodiazapine addiction – Sherri just got off a 20 year Klonopin habit. No kidding. She’s a rock star.

I think you will really enjoy and be enthralled by this candid and very informative conversation about mania and all of it’s symptoms and troubles.

Please do leave your comments on ourconversation and what you would like us to talk about in the future. After the Klonopin conversation- we will discuss Sherri’s hospital stays. 12 in all!

Yes, she is a bipolar superstar. She keeps going no matter what.

Julie

 

 
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Where is euphoric hypomania when I need it?

Monday, May 25th, 2009

That is only partly a joking question. I know that my mania is just as dangerous as my depression. But why can’t I at least have as much hypomania as depression! If a psych read this they would remind me that what goes up must come down. In fact, I write that in all of my books- but I don’t know one person who doesn’t love euphoric hypomania in the beginning and middle stages. When it hits the third stage it’s awful- as is the bad crash that inevitably follows. But I still wish I could have it more- just without the downside. It’s sort of like being able to live on sweets without ever getting fat!

 I manage my hypomania just as diligently as I manage the depression. I know how serious it is- but when I’m depressed as I am today- I wish it would just show up for a few hours so that I can get a lot done without my brain telling me how pointless my life is and there’s no point to even work!

Just keepin it real here!

 Julie

PS: If you’re new to this blog, there is a mania tab on the right that explains the difference between bipolar I and Bipolar II.  Bipolar I has full blown mania and bipolar II – which is what I have- has hypomania. 

Bipolar ii Disorder and Bipolar I disorder- what is the difference?

Monday, May 18th, 2009

What is the difference between Bipolar ii Disorder and Bipolar I Disorder? Do you know the answer? Many don’t though it’s very specific.

Bipolar ii disorder has all of the same symptoms as bipolar I disorder with one MAJOR difference. Bipolar I disorder has full blown mania that often comes with psychosis. Bipolar ii disorder has hypomania that rarely comes with psychosis. My dear friend Sherri has bipolar I disorder. She has to be very careful as her mania is always lurking around and waiting to take over. She takes lithium and zyprexa to keep the mania and psychosis at bay. I have bipolar ii hypomania. Mine is very euphoric though it can be agitated. Mine doesn’t have psychosis- my bipolar psychosis can be around without any other serious mood swings though I am usually depressed.

Bipolar I disorder was the only bipolar disorder recognized for many, many years. Recently, the bipolar ii disorder diagnosis has become more common as doctors now know the signs of hypomania.
I have just as much trouble with bipolar ii disorder as my friend Sherri has with her bipolar I diagnosis. Just in different ways.

This is a fascinating topic- there is a lot of information on the right that describes the difference between the two bipolar disorder diagnoses. Which one do you have? If you care about someone with the illness? What is their diagnosis? Knowing your diagnosis is extremely important as it determines the medications used to treat the illness!

Julie

Summer Mania

Tuesday, April 21st, 2009

Bipolar Disorder Mania Peaks in the Summer!

NOw is the time for a mania check…

Wow, I had a wild hypomanic episode a few months ago. I wrote about it at the time. If you go to the mania link to the right, you can read all about mania and my experiences. It’s a very, very dangerous mood swings as it feels good- absolutely no one wants to be depressed, but people who experience euphoric mania often welcome it and never want it to end. (Agitated mania is called dysphoric mania- it’s also explained on the mania link to the right.)

We really are moving into the mania season. Sunlight affects our sleep as we get more sun through the eyes – which affects the brain. So,  yes- keeping out of the sun helps. But who wants to do that if they have been depressed?

This is a complicated illness- and we have to know our mania symptoms just as much as our depression symptoms.

How is your mood as compared to what it was in the winter? Are things maybe feeling a bit TOO great?

Julie

Reader Comment: Mania and Sex

Friday, April 17th, 2009

Here is a question from a brave reader who is dealing with some tough problems surrounding mania. Most of us have been through them- one of the main symptoms of mania is a lack of judement and control around sex. Beleive me, I had that problem for a long time. Here is the question and my answer:

I suddenly am unable to control the sexual drive towards another man who is happy to soothe me. I am a happily married woman. I seem to get caught up in the moment and I don’t know how to stop. I don’t seem to want to stop. He comforts me and brings sanity to an otherwise insane world. I know it would break my spouses heart and that he would leave me it he knew. I have to say I wouldn’t blame him. I know there is no future with this man, just comfort. Help.

Hi Sara,

Immediate help is needed and it has to start with you. If this is mania- even mild mania- it means that what you do now has the potential to wreck your future. If you have never done anything like this in your past and have not had problems with your husband in the past- go to the doctor now and tell what is happening with your bipolar disorder. It’s easier to do this first than try to handle this completely on your own with the other man. If you were on a drinking binge and in the gutter- you would have to get help for your drinking- if you have bipolar disorder and are having an affair – as many, many people do when they are manic- then you need meds and help ASAP.

Mania is so tricky. It tells you in the moment that all is fine- and then when it ends, you come out of it and say – oh my god. What was I thinking? That wasn’t me? My ex Ivan had an affair when he was manic. He was devastated when he got out of the hosptial and the mania was gone. Luckily, I knew enough about mania by then to know it wasn’t him.

But you have reasoning now- or you would not have written this site- this means that the mania is not bad enough for you to not see what you’re doing as was the case with Ivan.

Here is your choice- to let bipolar disorder and the choices you are making now ruin your life- or to find the strengh in you now to call your doctor and get meds that will help.

It’s up to you and I know YOU know what choice you must make immediatly. If I can control my sexual behavior around milder mania- you can do the same. It’s hard, but it’s 100% possible.

You were able to write your brave comment on this site and you are ABLE to take charge of your life and save your relationship with your husband.

You CAN DO IT!

julie