I simply could not work yesterday. I kept having mood swings that just wore me out. I sat in front of my computer and had trouble focusing. It’s so sad and frustrating to see how bipolar gets in the way of my work life. I want to work. I often enjoy working. And yet, when I’m depressed it feels impossible. I stick to it though. Even if I only do a small amount, I often make myself work. Today is different. I sat down in front of my computer and just started working like a normal person.
Does this happen to you? I hate it. What is going on in our brains when this happens? Is the ability to work effectively really just a process of brain chemicals? I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. How can I bypass my faulty wiring and actually accomplish something?
I have a lot of tools I use on days like yesterday, but sometimes the effort is just too much. Talking with friends and going to see my mother to watch American Idol was probably all I could do yesterday. I try not to be too hard on myself. My mood swings are severe, but I will keep going. I can write books, articles, and answer my email as best as I can on the bad days. I have a system and it keeps me going.
Julie
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