Newsletter: I have to get everything out of my house!

October 23, 2008 3:21 am Admin About Julie, Friends & Family, Newsletters

I sometimes get in moods where it really feels like I need to just get rid of everything I own. It all seems to crowd me. It can be odd stuff- such as not being able to stand having a dresser in my room so I throw all of the clothes on my bed and put the dresser outside.

My family is used to this. They have gotten sneaky. When I say that I have to get all of the bowls out of my kitchen, my mom will help me put them in a bag and then keep them in her basement. Sometimes a year later I will suddenlly miss my bowls and she will tell me where to find them.

If you don’t have bipolar disorder, you’re probably thinking- Julie is super weird!

Well, bipolar is weird! Right now I have the huge desire to get rid of all of my food in the kitchen. I have so many eating issues and I can just feel how the food is taking up too much space. It’s filling my brain. My brain is telling me that things would be a lot easier if I literally got rid of everything in the kitchen and started over.

When I tell these stories, most people have some of there own! When I’m manic it’s especially bad as I have a lot of energy behind the desire.

I try to be reasonable when I get like this. If it’s something that’s really bothering me such as having too many socks in my closet- I can leave that alone- but if I feel there are too many books on the shelves, I let myself put all of them in a bag and store them somewhere. I feel a lot better. I’ve learned not to put them in my car and take them to Goodwill like I have done in the past.

I have learned to compromise. I wonder if you have ever gone through this!

My sister in law would laugh a lot if she read this as she is the one who often keeps the stuff for me!

Julie