I just received this comment on the blog I wrote on bipolar depression:
“ I want to die. Can you help me please. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and I don’t want to live anymore.”
It’s hard to get these emails- not because they shock me- they don’t, but because I wish I could sit across from the person and tell them why they feel the way they do and that they can get through this.
Since I can’t actually look at the person, I will write them here.
Hi. I’ve been suicidal so many times I can no longer count the episodes. Suicidal thoughts are a completely normal part of bipolar disorder. We get depressed, manic, anxious and paranoid, just to name a few- and we also get suicidal.
Wanting to die is actually something different than it seems- it’s actually wanting to end the pain that comes with bipolar disorder depression. I can remember being so suicidal that I was rolling on the floor in order not to do something I didn’t really want to do. I’m not kidding about this. The compulsion that comes with suicidal thoughts is what makes it so dangerous. When I had thoughts of running my car off a bridge, I said out loud, “I don’t want to kill myself! This is not real! This is bipolar lying to me!” and I kept driving until I was off the bridge.
Bipolar disorder is a VERY dangerous illness. It makes you think and do things you don’t really think and don’t really want [... Read More ...]
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