Bipolar Disorder and Suicidal Depression Downswings

This post actually follows a thread I started about four entries ago….  

Surviving a Terrible Down Swing

I got very hypomanic yesterday. I wrote about it earlier and wrote a newsletter about it.  Of course, it’s very easy to write when you’re hypomanic. But when it was going on, I could tell it was going to spin out of control. I managed to stay well enough not to do something stupid.

The problem is what I’m going through now. I woke up in a terrible downswing. Just terrible. Crying with suicidal thoughts. Just awful. I feel sorry for myself!  Then my good friend Karen had to cancel our evening plans. I always feel better when I go out with Karen, so this was a blow. I just cried and cried. The tears come so easily when you’re suicidal. I started talking myself out of this downswing. I thought of what I said in Get it Done [ Read More ]





Bipolar Disorder and People Who Change Plans!

I now a lot of people with bipolar disorder and we all have one thing in common. We need the people in our lives to be dependable. I used to stay in relationships with people who made me sick. Here is how they made me sick:

 

- Call and want to meet and then cancel

- Forget we set a time to meet and then tell me it’s my fault as I expected something from them that wasn’t actually confirmed

- Come on strong and then fade away

- Remained secretive even when they knew me well

 

And finally- these people in no way understood, even when I told them over and over again, that I’m an extremely flexible person in most [ Read More ]