and I’m not happy about it.
I get euphoric mania. Since I have bipolar II, I technically have hypomania.
It feels so good. 95% of my bipolar disorder is depression. So mania is like a dream come true- but as with all dreams, you have to wake up.
I am upset because I’m rapid cycling. When I get hypomanic, I think- what if I were like this all of the time? Work is easy- life is easy- I don’t want to overeat- everthing looks beautiful. Why am I tortured with this utopia only to have it taken from me in a few days.
I spent many years in this confusion before I was diagnosed with bipolar disoder in 1995.
I still have the questions, but I know the answer. I am tortured because I have bipolar disorder.
It’s an illness. I now have to go into treatment mode. I’m hypomanic as I write this- the [ Read More ]

