Reader comment on suicidal thoughts….

I write a lot about suicide on this blog. I just received this comment from one of the posts. I replied to the comment below:

Hi Julie,

And, now I’m scared.  This down keeps on keeping on and more and more I cannot see the point of my living.  Diagnosed 12 years ago and many meds later I’m not confined to my bed but I’m just awake more to alienate myself from everyone and experience longer and more excruciating bouts of pain.  I understand that fighting attitude and I keep trying to rise above it and then I get weary and then I can’t fight my way out of a paper bag.  I’ve lost all credibility with family, friends and co-workers.  I don’t want to be around someone like me.  I have not stopped crying for weeks. I cry while I’m walking, I cry at  thru water aerobics  Now, I’m just holding on until I [ Read More ]





Posted on November 29th, 2009 | Tags: , , | Category: Suicide

Depression and Suicide

I just received this comment on the blog I wrote on bipolar depression:

“ I want to die. Can you help me please. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and I don’t want to live anymore.”

It’s hard to get these emails- not because they shock me- they don’t, but because I wish I could sit across from the person and tell them why they feel the way they do and that they can get through this.

Since I can’t actually look at the person, I will write them here.

Hi. I’ve been suicidal so many times I can no longer count the episodes.  Suicidal thoughts are a completely normal part of bipolar disorder. We get depressed, manic, anxious and paranoid, just to name a few- and we also get suicidal.

Wanting to die is actually something different than it seems- it’s actually wanting to end the pain that comes with bipolar disorder depression. I [ Read More ]





Bipolar Disorder and Suicidal Thoughts

Sucidal thoughts are normal when you have bipolar disorder. I was really stressed the day before my new radio show last week. I was on a busy road and saw a red light up ahead. My mind said, “Julie, you can just run that red light and a car will hit you and all will be taken care of!” These thoughts used to scare me a lot. I now know they’re a response to stress. My friend Lani, who was the guest on the show that day said, “Well, your brain thought is was helping!”

So true. These thoughts are not real. They are manufactured by a bipolar brain. Don’t listen.

Julie





Posted on April 11th, 2008 | Tags: , , , , | Category: Suicide