In 2010, I was so suicidal I had 13 bilateral ECT treatments. They helped my psychosis enormously, but not the depression. In 2012, I was so suicidal, I had a bottle of pills in my hand and talked myself out of my room and into calling my coauthor John Preston for help. The suicidal episode was a reaction to a med change.
In 2016 in a beautiful room in Cannes, France I was suicidal from Ambien and had the thought I should jump out my window. Just two months ago, I was so suicidal and paranoid due to a new job, I had to stay home from a World Cup match. This is significant because I can honestly say that soccer is my love.
Please know that this illness might not ever end for some of us, but we can learn to manage this illness. I live with bipolar. I manage bipolar by using my Health Cards Treatment System for Bipolar. I want the same life for you. No gimmicks. I take meds, but I’m not drugged. Life is often hard, but unlike in the past, life is hard, but at the same time, it’s also good!
What can you do today to start getting better?
Who can you call?
What med can you try?
What book can you read?
I believe in you!
