I’m 47 years old today. I have to admit I’m not much of a birthday fan. I find them stressful as I have a party and always think no one will show up. Is that bipolar or what!!! Of course, people do show up and we have fun. I just do happy hour and then karaoke. Turning 47 is hard. It says to me- one more year gone by of depression Julie! One more year of rapid cycling! One more year! And then I say to myself, “What @#$@#$ Julie. That is ridiculous. Depression wants you to focus on age. Life wants you to focus on friends, self improvement, bipolar mangements, work and life in general. How good are you as a person Julie? Do you hurt people? Do you let your bipolar wreck your relationships like you used to? No, no, no! So what if I’m 47. It’s great I have made it this far. People with bipolar disorder know exactly what I mean. So good for me! Happy birthday to me. I want to be positive no matter what my mood.
When is your birthday? Please do celebrate it as another year of being able to learn more about bipolar disorder!
Though I have to admit I often hear the first line of a Rolling Stones song in my head when I think of getting older. Haha!
Hi Julie –
Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday,
Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday,
Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday,
To you, to you, to you,
Horrary! (that’s my family’s birthday song)
I hope you have a great birthday, and a great year.
I turned 47 in August of 2010 and I wouldn’t change anything. So revel in the age you are. I think about how much I know today and how much I DON’T have to learn over. I look at my 17yo and think “thank GOD, I don’t have to do that again”.
My youngest asked me the other day if I could take away my bipolar in my past if I would. I told her truthfully that I wouldn’t. It has made me who I am, and when I feel good, I like me. Now, if I could get rid of it and not live another day with bipolar would I, you bet your life, but that isn’t an option, so until then…….coping and learning.
– Mary
Thank you Mary! I had a good birthday with my family. I see friends for dinner on Saturday. When I’m depressed I feel so down about my birthday. My mind tells me that I’m getting old and that no one cares about me. I then hear a voice that says, “If you have a party, no one will come!” Luckily, I’ve learned not to listen to the voice. It’s still there every year, but it’s not true and it has never been true!
I’m glad you are doing well- and believe me!!! I would do anything to get rid of this as well, but like you I see that it’s my reality and I have to live with it.
Happy 2011 to us all. julie
Julie, my bday is the 25th! I’m a lot older, but I always say it beats the alternative!You have a LOT to offer! Don’t ever forget that!