I’ve been at a writer’s conference this weekend- which is why I haven’t done a blog! It’s a big conference in Portland, Oregon where I live.
I taught a class on writing self help books today. I always try to get perspective on where things are in my life. A few years ago, I remember walking around the conference and thinking- I want to teach here one day. I want to know the wonderful people who come here!
Two years later I was teaching. Things take time. The first I attended as a teacher I got quite overstimulated and paranoid.
I’m much better this year. I go home early and make sure I get at least seven hours of sleep. I’m eating better. I try to stay calm when I feel myself getting too excited- and I remind myself that I will NOT listen to the thoughts that tell me others are better than I am and that I will always be on the outside of the ‘cool’ crowd.
I could be at the Oscars and my brain would say that I’m not in the ‘cool crowd!’ This is not a bipolar thing- it’s a self confidence thing.
Depression took away my belief in myself for many, many years. I’m now consciously working on this. I want to be someone who can feel good when I accomplish something. It has been a struggle!
Julie
