I had a wonderful day yesterday. One reason it was wonderful is that it was so NORMAL.
All of us with bipolar disorder strive for one thing- normalcy and stability. Then we can choose things to make us happy and avoid things that make us unhappy- it would be a choice!
I taught a class on writing bestselling non fiction books yesterday. It was just great. I’m finally well enough to plan and teach my own seminars. I’m thankful.
I went to bed tired from real work instead of being tired from being sick all day!
Then, when I woke up this morning, the depression was here. It’s mild, so I will get rid of it. But it’s here. Unfair.
Here are words to describe bipolar disorder: relentless, scary, cruel, awful, petulant and UNFAIR!
At least I know what is going on and can make a joke about it.
I have the power to get rid of this depression and I will do it starting now.
Julie
Good for you Julie!!! About taking hold of the depression, which is very hard to do. You taught a class yesterday and that is why you were so happy. I am the same way…if I teach a piano lesson or interact with someone or play the piano for an event, depression is just not there, but when I come back to my world of living alone…then the depression is going to hit and I have to fight it or choose to give in to it, which is sometimes the best thing to do as long as I don’t give into it for a long period of time…..the time factor is important.