Bipolar Mood Swings are so ridiculous..

I mean that! They literally make no sense.

I just finished a book proposal for my next book. It was a huge undertaking and I was literally elated when I hit the send button on my email.

 In the past, I would get depressed when I finished a large project. This time, I was even happy the next day! I thought to myself- wow, maybe the depression skipped me this time!

Then I realized I was slightly manic- I wrote about it below. This upset me as it’s not fair… I always say it’s not fair and I sound like a little baby- but it’s not fair!

Last night, around 4PM I went straight down. This was 24 hours after sending the proposal. So I guess I didn’t slip by the depression after all. It was a bad down swing. At first I wasn’t sure why I was depressed. I kept saying to myself- this isn’t real! You felt great yesterday! all of these worried thoughts aren’t real.

And of course they weren’t real. I took a walk and listened to a funny radio show- Wait Wait Don’t Tell Me from NPR- and I talked myself out of that depression the best I could. I then went to a movie and wrote positive and realistic thoughts in my journal. I read my depression Health Card.

 The downswing was gone by the time I went to bed.

I know that my brain chemistry is 100% affected by a negative trigger such as an argument with my sister in law- unfortunately, my brain chemistry gets messed up by something extremely positive as well.

Have you ever had a down swing after experiencing something really great? Julie