What if the Sun Doesn’t Come Out Tomorrow? Thoughts on Chronic Bipolar Disorder- A BP Magazine Blog from Julie A. Fast
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Dealing with ‘bipolar envy’ when watching celebs with bipolar disorder jet set and live their lives.
I love writing for Bp Magazine. In this edition, I write about my bipolar envy and how I wish I were like the celebrities who seem to have bipolar and yet are still able to jet set around the world- ignore triggers- drink and live it up and still be stable. HMMM.
From the Bp Magazine for Bipolar blog:
I have a massive case of bipolar envy. I’ve heard of people who get really sick and then find a medication that works and they never get sick again. Some people go YEARS between mood swings. Others can have full time jobs and lead relatively normal lives after a bipolar disorder diagnosis. These people exist. I have heard of them, but wow, this is not the bipolar disorder I know.
My bipolar is chronic. It’s every day. I feel like I walk on the edge between being stable and being sick from the minute I wake up until I finally fall asleep in a Melatonin haze. Please know this doesn’t mean I’m unhappy and it doesn’t mean I don’t get on with my life, but the concept of a life without daily bipolar disorder symptoms is currently just a dream in my world.
It took me many years to come to terms with the concept that I have a very serious mental illness.
I am in the SMI (Serious Mental Illness) category and without my management plan, I would be in the hospital regularly. Maybe this makes me different from others with bipolar, which is why I feel so envious to read of those who aren’t freaking gobsmacked by mood swings almost every single day…
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