It is the 4th of July. I had a great time at my brother’s birthday party yesterday- and I am going to a party with my good friends Marsha and Adam in a few hours. And I just felt my mood sweep down and I had this thought:
I don’t have any friends.
In the past, these thoughts plagued me and I didn’t know what to do about them. I have plenty of friends. But the thoughts still try to control me! As you probably know either through personal experience or seeing it in a loved one, bipolar causes thoughts that ARE NOT REAL- but they feel real. And if we say them out loud or act on them, they become real- especially to others. So, when I had this ridiculous thought – I said to myself, “Julie, this is a bipolar thought. It’s not true. Get up and do something. It will pass.”
This little down swing is from holiday stress and the often real feelings that come up around bipolar depression- such as worrying I am not well liked or that my life is pointless.
It’s hard to live with these thoughts- but with the help of my treatment plan and my meds- they are not as common as they used to be.
How are you?
Here I am at my brother’s party: (I’m the one in the glasses)
It really is difficult getting through to someone with bi-polar but I will start. First from your comments you have posted you lack major B vitamins and some trace minerals. They all work on hippocampus which is the center of your memories- good or bad and are in fact since ovum and sperm connected to make you.The more thoughts ones has of troubled times and bi-polar racing mind the more the hippocampus stores and thus even more need for B vitamins and trace minerals- depression is there for a good reason- it tells you if you are listening that your body, brain and spirit are out of whack and need something. Those with racing mind will first after B vitamins and trace minerals start to slow down the mind and focus and thus pupose and intent to life or even a minute of time have meaning. It is the way the human is built but if you get too many depleations then the spiral in unwinding in the hippocampus releases many thoughts and behaviors and we wonder where these thoughts and behaviors come from- even spiders put under stress weave different webs so why do you think humans who do not get enough nutrients can exist much less share in joy, laughter,purpose and intent- action and deed and have a meaningful life. So get bussy doing your research into all nutrients and paricularly into B vitamns-Nutrients are you springboard and your springboard is another springboard etc etc . ronald dishinger 7/9/2012
Hi Julie. I was diagnosed as having bipolar disorder since 1991. I’ve been on different kind of medications and have suffered alot. But now I’m doing well. No more staying up at nights and having suicidal thoughts. Thinking of looking for a job now or going back to school.