I just found this blog. It’s from August of 2007! One scary thing is that I still go through what I write about below. The great thing is that my management skills have grown exponentially as the years pass. I’ve learned that even if bipolar disorder doesn’t go away- I can progress with my life.
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Keep Going Julie
I need to remind myself of this today. When I got out of bed this morning my first thought was:
There is nothing good in my life.
This was my first thought! How am I supposed to have a good day after this? There is nothing wrong with my life really. Today is like my other days. I will write my book, see friends, play with my nephew and work with a writing student tonight. I will then go see my mom and watch our favorite TV show: Dancing with the Stars! Don’t laugh, I highly recommend this show as it’s so positive. 😉
But then there is the thought from this morning- and the other thoughts it caused. And of course the crying that starts when I think of how unfair bipolar disorder is.
But I will NOT let this keep me from getting things done today. I am here at the library writing my book. I will have a good lunch. I will see people and do the things I’ve planned. I may not feel good about it, but I know that energy of others will keep me going no matter how depressed I am.
I will not give up and let this rotten illness take this day from me.
Julie
PS: Where are you today as compared to 2007? What is going well?
