Newsletter: Bipolar Disorder and Paranoid Delusions

Parnoia is a type of psychosis called a delusion. A delusion is a false belief.

For example, paranoia can be the belief that you have done something wrong and that a person or an organization is upset with you. This is a scary delusion as it feels so real. 

Paranoia used to really cause me a lot of trouble. I have worked hard so that I can at least recognize it before it makes me do something stupid.

I often get the feeling that my friends are ignoring me and that they have met friends they like a lot better than myself.  It’s a terrible feeling. Luckily, I know the signs of paranoia and I don’t act on them, instead I call my friends and ask them to do something. When they say yes, I know that all is fine. My friends are the type who will tell me if something is wrong- so my paranoia is almost always rooted in bipolar and not reality.

Paranoid feelings are FALSE. Worry based on at least some fact is real.

Paranoia does not stand up to factual questioning- but for the person in the paranoid episode, it feels more real than anything they have ever experienced.  It’s important to remember than it feels real for them.  If you try to talk a paranoid person out of their beliefs, it won’t work.

Here are some examples of paranoia. Have you seen these in yourself or your loved ones?

1.Beleiving that someone is standing across the street staring at you through your apartment window, but when you look outside, there is nothing there.

2. Feeling with great certainty that your coworkers have a plan to get you fired.  You know this becuase when they are in a group and walk up to them, they all sccatter in different directions without saying hi.

3. Once, when my former partner Ivan was in the hosptial, he was very, very paranoid. I went in one day to say hello and he looked at me and said, “Why is your face so red? Have you been doing something wrong that you aren’t telling me?” True paranoia. He told me later that he really believed it.

When you are well, these thoughts never even come up. You know there is no one outside and you know for sure that your colleagues like you. They simply go back to their desks when they finish a conversation.

The dangerous this about paranoia is acting on it. Calling the cops for a man who isn’t there or confronting coworkers for talking behind your back.

Question: What is the best treatment for paranoia? Anti psychotics and a management  plan such as the Health Cards to make sure the paranoid symptoms are caught early so they don’t move into destructive behavior. This is what I have done, so it’s possible!

Julie

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6 comments to Newsletter: Bipolar Disorder and Paranoid Delusions

  • Julia

    I am so paranoid lately. I keep thinking that everyone is annoyed with me and i am a huge burden or a really annoying pimple that won’t go away. (gross haha). I keep thinking that my parents, who love me the most in the world, are sick of me and i feel so guilty that i have to cut. i haven’t done it since february 2008 but i jsut feel like everyone is so sick of me and doesn’t want to “deal” with me. I know it’s not true and a lot of people love adn care about me but for some reason i can’t be convinced of that most of the time. It drives me crazy!

  • Julia

    my geodon medicine is making me more paranoid and psychotic and now i am switching to lithium. i really don’t want to take anything. the only thing that helped me was marijuana used judicially. i’m not a druggy and have been clean for a month. but i am so sick of being psycho and severely paranoid while ON the drug that’s supposed to help me. nothing helps me at all. just pot every so often and nature and music. but i am not doing it now because my doctor said no. i’m ready to abandon every pharmasutcal (spelling?) company. they just want to make money off of all us crazy people buy more and more drugs that don’t even work. ook maybe i am in a really angry mood but this is how i feel.

  • bBenda

    I am so sick of drugs being thrown at me and feeling like my psych doesn’t believe my reactions to all these meds. I’m bipolar and agoraphobic. The Geodon has made me throw up for 2 days and this stupid doctor won’t even call me. My anger management is down the toilet, as you can tell. I wish I had a punching bag. And the waves of paranoia. What’s a person to do?

  • Lynn

    I have bipolar and also am paranoid at times. It makes me so depressed at the things I think and believe. It makes forming any type of relationship almost impossible. I use to be a cutter because I felt so alone. I wish so much that this would all stop and I could just be normal.

  • grace

    I am 55 years old still having all symptoms just realising I have delusion and paranoia. It gets really bad with stress. I can’t watch TV. Too much stimuli. If it wasn’t for God I would have died 3 x. I love cooking, reading biblical books, gardening. Still have episodes. When will this mental hell end.

  • paul Langdon

    I’m on a massive paranoia trip now. I’m bipolar and someone said a little comment to me and I’m in fear of attack. I’m listening to every car that pulls up and don’t want to go out.